20. 悲傷的風中

多少年來，在繁華喧鬧的小島上每天過著日復一日不斷重複 窒息循環的日子。

清晨，從東邊的家，趕到西邊上班。不停忙碌不停競賽不知爲何。

晚上，疲憊回家。幻想逃離。

同一個軌道， 每一天。

厭倦的工作、乏味的交際、僵化的思想、枯竭的靈魂、麻木的來回。

繁密的生活早已令人忘卻了喜悅的感覺、哀愁的滋味，連一片沉痛的哀傷也只能被強行抑壓著深藏心底。偶然，自夜半迷朦中，一把利刀又會悄悄出現，在同一傷口處狠狠割下！

終於，決意孤身遠離，流浪放逐，一步一步走向荒寒 走向孤寂 走向一無所有的盡頭……  今天，在蒼茫無邊的天宇下，就讓你自由釋放吧，任你化作狂風火焰把我盡情席捲吞噬， 直至我全然消失其中……

20. Grieving in the Wind

For so many years, I had been living the same monotonous/repeated/suffocated life day after day in the hustling and bustling tiny island I belonged.

Morning, from the home in the east, rushed to the office in the west, kept competing kept fighting kept struggling for God knows what reason.

Night, went home absolutely ruined, dreamt of escaping.

Same routing, every single day.

A sickening job, untruthful socializing, fossilized mind, depleted spirit, a life that’s killing me, surviving liked a zombie.

Overloaded schedules had taken over the deep feelings of joy and sadness, even the deepest grief had to be suppressed and concealed under this shattered heart.  Sometimes, in the depth of night, the demon would come back abruptly, mercilessly stabbed on the most painful wound again.

Couldn’t stand it any longer, finally I determined to leave everything behind, exile far off, and head towards the utmost desolation, loneliness and oblivion.  Today, under the wilderness of the boundless sky, I shall set you free, just devour me as you pleased,  until every single bit of me is obliterated in your all-powerful hurricane…